I don't know.
That seems to be a cop-out answer, but it's honest. I don't know how I'm Otherkin or why I'm Otherkin. I could say "well, my experiences and feelings can mean X", but that's about it. I generally feel that it's psychological in nature, but it could also be spiritual. That's all I know. I just know I experience X and feel like X. The why or how is far from being answered and I can't even begin to try. It's not like it truly matters to me because it won't change what I feel.
So...there's a short answer and one that seems silly, at least to me.
Arawn
Where to start, where to start...
When I first joined the Otherkin community it was through a therian group on Myspace. I was 14 or 15 (my sophomore year of high school) and I was actually looking for a vampire group, which I went through a brief phase of at that age. Anyway, I joined the therian group because a lot of what it talked about was similar to what I felt, but I said I was a wolf therian because everyone was a wolf therian so I had to be one too. It just seemed easier to fit in that way and I did have moments of feeling canine-ish.
At some point I found Trueform Within (which I still miss -- I was devastated when it vanished) and eventually the old incarnation of Werelist. I'm not entirely certain as to how I reached those communities, only that I did. I then went around through a variety of kin-types including, but not all inclusive,:
- Tiger
- Dragon
- Angel
- Polymorph
- Polymorphic angel
- Polymorphic demon
It was a thoroughly confusing time due to the nature of being a polymorph. When you feel like a variety of things quite a bit it leads to identity confusion and uncertainty. Sometimes it can still lead to uncertainty and sometimes it's rather a pain to not be able to go "I am X". Currently I have just started to say I'm a polymorphic lion because it generally fits and it's the closest to what I've got for explaining myself.
That's really about it in regards to the history of my identity so I guess I'll leave it at that.
Polymorph.
Mostly. It's kind of a hard question to answer because there's no "set" form and polymorph is the closest that I can. I have polymorphic tendencies with no real core form though it seems to mostly resemble a demonic lion with all the characteristics of a lion, but with a "darker" flavor and a sentience that lions of Earth don't appear to exhibit.
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